dammit

I am completely unable to do things that life requires of people.

moses goes outside

I smelled the salty air tonight. I was thinking about the secrets I'm keeping from myself.

do you think he really likes me?

I saw an ad today, geared toward single people advertising 'find the love of your life' or something along those lines. This is because facebook knows I'm single I guess, and one can only gather that I must be desperate. So, anyhow this ad featured a man who looked so much like our last commander-in-chief, none other than Mr. W, I could have sworn it was him. Do you think maybe he's looking for love? Does he finally seek the acceptance of other people? Does he want to date me and take me home to Barbara?
Must be some kind of mid-life end-of-an-era thing.

georgia

Am i farther away from who i was, am i closer to who i am now?

an encapsulated memory

prudence

i knew a girl named prudence briefly when i think i was 16
i think she was 16 also.
she was friends with beauvais and i think evey too.
we used to hang out at the cks on highland
she drove a saturn.
she was small like me and had freckles
she wore t-shirts with horses on them
and wore a pair of cowgirl boots all the time.
she said they were uncomfortable but she would endure the pain for fashion.
i think that was a joke, but i remember not being able to discern if it was.

neighbors

I met a cop today, he lives across the street and to the left of my parents' house. I had my yard sale, and for a good 2 hours there were no customers. My neighbor (don't remember his name) came out with his kid and hung out with me. He kept asking me all kinds of questions about my life... said i was some kind of bohemian type. I guess in comparison to him. He was really nice, i dont think i've ever met a cop that i liked before him.
My parents next-door neighbor came over also, she had no idea who i was. She thought my brother was an only child. She was very sweet and while i think shes my parents' age, has a ton of grandkids. She bought a bunch of my tank-tops for her college-aged ones.

friends?

Does dropping people from your friends list on facebook count as burning bridges? I've been doing this because, well, I'm not friends with these people. I took a class with them 6 years ago, or I knew them in third grade, and didn't want to accept their friend request in the first place. I don't really care about their 5 new babies. bitchy? perhaps. But they probably only friended me to look more popular.

leonard.

Leonard Cohen's music makes me aroused. His voice heightens my sensitivity like when i'm in the company of a lover.
The complexity is everything, i feel heartache and a swelling of passion simultaneously.